Cause

i feel-tempted-unsure-not in control.
i'm curious of why I do things-
why others do things.

I sit in agony-not know who I am-
trying to take control-of both halves.
without loosing sight of what I'm becoming.

what I should become.

staring at the ceiling-
i know this is all i have.
me. my life.

the chance to change it.

for the better,

for the worse.
overwhelmed with fear-anxiety-knowing that not knowing is worst of all.

and loosing control.

not knowing if it'll happen again.