Variance

Things have changed quite a bit.
I've gone from happy loopy to passively suicidal and back again in a matter of, when it really comes down to it, a year.
So I might be unsure of where I am right now, but I know some professional will tell me soon so I'm trying not to dwell.



I also am REALLY tired of being fake so I'm going to tell it like it is.
No, I'm not okay.
But that's okay.

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So this blog is in retirement.
I have plenty of other only diary type things and I really don't need another one.
But I am keeping it around for nostalgia's sake.

If you read any of this, oh reader who may have stumbles across this, know that this is OLD and embarrassing.
And feel free to laugh at it.

It's been awhile.

So I don't use this anymore.
And really, it's slightly embarrassing having this, BUT I have two blogs that I NEED to follow, so here we are again.

June 26 2010

I don't update this at all anymore, but I like to keep it around. I have another online blog-type-thing and I use it much more.

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Cause

i feel-tempted-unsure-not in control.
i'm curious of why I do things-
why others do things.

I sit in agony-not know who I am-
trying to take control-of both halves.
without loosing sight of what I'm becoming.

what I should become.

staring at the ceiling-
i know this is all i have.
me. my life.

the chance to change it.

for the better,

for the worse.
overwhelmed with fear-anxiety-knowing that not knowing is worst of all.

and loosing control.

not knowing if it'll happen again.

I had

school pictures...and was insanely distracted by trying to figure out what camera the guy had...I finally figured it was Nikon...looked kinda like a D3...it was CHUNKY.
Like you better have that thing on a tripod because it weights a billion pounds.

I bought:
Anywho, then I went downtown and got this jacket from Macys:
http://www1.macys.com/catalog/product/index.ognc?ID=394484&PseudoCat=se-xx-xx-xx.esn_results

Which I love because it's stretchy and like a sweatshirt without really being one.
And the colors are way cuter in real life.

May I add, I drove to Deer Park then back downtown. Lots of driving for me so far today. I don't think Mally appreciates the fact that she has to sit in the back since I only have my permit.

I got some more flat iron spray, because I am oficaially am flat-ironing like a mad woman.

Now:
I have to go to Target.
Go to Michaels to get some earring wires to make a billion earrings.
Go to Barnes and Nobel to get a book for school.

I need to:
Get Tap Dogs tickets and Aspen Santa Fe Ballet tickets. $$$$ UH
Get some thin "it stays" hair ties with the rubber on them
Ask my Running Start adviser some more questions.
Get a Thomas Barbey calender. I LOVE this guy! Definitely a artographer.
Get some sneaksneaks

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